When You’re Questioning God’s Call to Write

When You're Questioning God's Call to Write

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But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.” (Matthew 6:33, ESV)

“God, it is not working,” I cried in anguish. I had just checked the book sales; there were no new sales again. Tears singed the back of my eyes as I shook my head in frustration. I was equally as bothered with myself as I was with the low numbers. 

God had instructed me not to check the numbers a few months ago. I had held out for over a week this time, but my curiosity and twisted motivations kept getting the better of me. I really wanted to believe that God had called me to write and had given me a message that would help others. I kept looking for signs of success in the numbers. But they only worked to amplify my doubts.

Why am I even writing? No one is listening. 

Why isn’t God making this vision come true? Did I mishear Him? 

I am never going to make it in this writing world. Maybe I should just give up.

Obviously, God is not changing my circumstances. 

Whoa. That last thought gave me pause as conviction tightened my chest. Did my fickle and ungrateful heart really just say that? It is not like God had not always cared for me. It had been less than a year since He had walked me into a greater level of freedom than I had ever known before. The same freedom message in the book I was trying to get out there. 

I can quickly go negative towards God when chasing after the wrong thing. Evidently, my heart’s motivation was not in the right place, even though I was doing Kingdom work.

Instead of focusing on glorifying God and building His Kingdom with the gifts of communication and the message He had given me, I was seeking to build my own kingdom. 

It wasn’t going well. 

Instead of serving God and others with the blessings He had given me, I was attempting to serve myself. My focus was on the life I wanted rather than serving God with my whole heart. 

The truth was that my self-centered heart wasn’t serving me either. The fruit my twisted heart was producing was anxiety, discouragement and frustration. I had completely lost the motivation to help others. I was so busy trying to make it, I had forgotten that what I really wanted was to make a difference. 

Blowing out the breath I had been holding through this convicting moment, I repented and received God’s grace to put my focus back on Him and try again. 

As we walk out our callings to communicate for God, we are going to battle twisted motivations. Our motivations flow from our hearts and reveal what we most desire: to serve God or ourselves. Sometimes we will have dual motivations, and other times, we will get it totally wrong. We are human, after all. Plus, the world tells us success is in the numbers. The greatest is the most popular, right? But not in God’s Kingdom. In God’s Kingdom, greatness is found by humbling ourselves and serving God with our whole hearts. 

This is what Jesus meant when He told us to seek the Kingdom first. We must seek the Kingdom with our whole hearts. When we remember how much God has done for us and that it is all about Him, we realign our hearts and motivations. When we obey Him, not to measure in the world’s way but rather to trust Him faithfully regardless of what we see, we walk in our purpose and produce good fruit for ourselves and others.

Although we can’t always avoid getting twisted up again, we can always humble ourselves, repent and refocus again and again. That is the power of God’s grace and our heart’s truest desire. 

Written by COMPEL Training member, Micah Juntunen



Tracie Miles has been the Director of COMPEL Training at Proverbs 31 Ministries since January 2017, and has been volunteering on the speaker and writer teams for Proverbs 31 since 2007. Tracie is an author coach who works one on one with writers of all levels to help them pursue their writing dreams, and can be found at www.traciemiles.com. She is the author of seven bestselling books, including Living Unbroken, Love Life Again, Unsinkable Faith, Stress Less Living and Your Life Still Counts, and has a new book releasing July 2024 called God's Got You: Embracing New Beginnings With Courage and Confidence. She is also the founder of the national Living Unbroken Divorce Recovery Program, a 7 week study series to help women heal and recover together. Tracie has three grown children, two of whom are married, and lives in Charlotte, North Carolina. You can connect with Tracie on her website at www.traciemiles.com as well as on Facebook and Instagram.

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  1. Thank you very much for this! It is like this post has been meant for me. I am very grateful for this reminder! 🙂